Listen to the whisper, whisper to the listening.

Agents of Oblivion today.  I have a weird feeling today.  I don't know myself today.  I think I will spend the day being oblivious to myself today, I don't really want to think about stuff.  You know what I mean? I need to stay distracted.  It should be easy until I finish my audiobook.  that's when it gets hard to not think about things.  The problem is, when I listen to an audiobook I get obsessed with it, I must listen at all given opprotunities.  So, when it's over I kinda get this empty feeling and need to fill it with another audiobook.  One good thing about ABs is that I get tons of house work done without thinking about it.  It's awesome autopilot. 

I'm missing my long distance friends a lot lately.  I'm glad I'll get to see them soon.  It feels like forever.  I wish the holidays weren't so busy.  Maybe we will plan both a trip to NYC and CA again this year....it's expensive but I really really like spending time with both sets of peeps in those areas and...well...you know...i guess you only live once.  It's not like I want to go on vacation anywhere else anyway, you know?  And other than the long ass plane ride, Bear probably would really want to go back to CA anyway and play with his bff there.  He had such a good time last year.  I would hate to impose on people, though...that's the one thing about traveling and visiting people you know.  It's hard on them because you end up crashing with them (usually) and then they have to play host/hostess to you all week or however long you are there for.  I don't expect that in the least, mind you.  And now with a half pint, well, it just gets harder.  the nice thing about CA is that there is another half pint to keep eachother entertained, so it all works out pretty well.  And lots of toys.  And parents.  So, it's all good there. 

I'm rambling.  Dead girl, there never be, another one that screams like you.  When death sleeps, it dreams of you.  Delilah played the dead girl at the freak show, she smiles like a corpse, like zombies eating dust in mexico. 

Gah.  I miss being younger.  I miss my friends all living here.  You really take that for granted until they are all gone over the country.

Here's some music for you today.