Wednesday, June 30, 2010

I've been there, done that, messed around, I'm having fun don't put me down

So, I am being given some internet responsibilities at work...I hope I don't mess it up.  I don't really know much about making a website or what makes a good website.  I do know my watershed stuff, though, so maybe I'll come out on top, right?

Ryan is applying for Middlefield and Stow this week...maybe something good will come of it. 

Fourth of july party at casa glow on friday, not ready for it but should be fun.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Will you bite the hand that feeds you, will you get down on your knees


Ryan came home the most depressed I've ever seen him last night.  Something needs to change soon. I keep hoping for something...

I have two music penpals now, hopefully that goes well.  I just want to find new and interesting music.  One is Canadian, one is from Brazil.  So, pretty cool so far.  I'll let you know how it goes.  The Canadian likes Nickelback, though...I hope that I can help him but I'm not sure how much he is really gonna influence my music... I mean, it's Nickelback.  I don't think I need to say more.

Monday, June 28, 2010

This is my motivation, with a little vindication, no need to keep you waiting

So, I promised the wine fest story and here you have it.

So, JJ showed up at my house at 5:30 to be my designated driver (she's so responsible!) and we headed off. Then, about half way there, I realized I did not bring my ID.  We had a small crisis about my money as well but then I found it (I don't use purses so when I do I become an idiot, I had my party dress on so no pockets).  So, long story short I am veyr dumb and JJ had to drive us all the way back to my house to get my ID (sorry again...:(...).  Finally we got there and had a great time.  I drank a lot of different types of wine and JJ got to basically watch me be an idiot.  Good times. 

We met this girl at the free Irish cheese booth and we both wanted to take her home.  She was seriously so cute and very authentic Irish.  Her accent was super cute.  We wanted to talk to her longer but we couldn't hear her over the band.  Stupid loud music. 

So, basically good times, good times.  We are thinking (you can tell me if you are still thinking positivily..) about going to the winefest in Hudson in July...

Sunday, June 27, 2010

A mosquito, an albino, my libido, hey

The party for Asher's first birthday went really well.  I'll post pictures tommorrow probably ( I know I say that every time but I really will, I almost promise!). 

Asher got tons of loot, he climbed all through it this morning as I was trying to sort some of it out.  It was cute. 

And, I guess this post is all about Asher today, but he was so cute last night, one of his toys was playing a song and he started dancing and humming along to it, I couldn't stand how cute it was.  I was like, OMG!

What a dork.  (me, of course).  Gonna get me some sweet potato fries today!  Holla.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Five glasses changed my mind

So, I just came back from teaching 50 five year old kids about water safety and pollution.  It was exhausting.  They are so easily distracted.  I haven't worked with a group of kids that young in this aspect yet, it was fun but difficult.  Fifth graders are much easier. 

Getting off work early because of Safety Town as well, gonna get pizza and hang with my boys tonight. 

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

I met this guy at the candy store, the kind of guy you can't ignore

I really like typing.  I think it's partially because I am good at it, meaning I can type pretty fast and mostly accurate, and partially because it's easier than writing which takes forever.  These are things I am noticing as I am writing more often. 

Thinking on that, Ryan read my story last night.  He said he liked it but I can't tell if he was being a supportive husband or if he really likes it. 

Poor Ry.  He needs a new job.  :(

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

It wasn't my idea, it never was my idea

So, I'm writing my novel again.  I kind of laugh at myself, it's pretty silly of me to pretend like I'll ever get anywhere with it.  I just like to write, sometimes it makes me feel like a real person with creativity and intellegence.  I often feel like I have no more creativity or intellegence so this is a nice fantasy I harbor occasionally.  I've actually been writing this for about a a year and a half, I write a chapter or two and then I leave it for a while, then I come back again.  So, I only have like, five chapters.  But whatever. 

I was thinking about posting it online somewhere but...meh...

Going to a wine fest with JJ on Friday, I'm super psyched about that.  Hopefully the weather is nice!

And only a little more than a month until California!  Woot!

Monday, June 21, 2010

You make me feel like dancing, gonna dance the night away

Asher slept in this morning.  I think it's because he was up without naps yesterday and he didn't sleep well the night before.  It was nice for me, I got a nice quiet morning.  Bought some stuff for his party today, will pick up more later today if I can stop someplace. 

Work is better so far but I won't expect it to stay that way, it's just the way it is around here.  Going downtown to file a littering complaint today so that makes me feel pretty good.  It's rare that we ever catch anyone dumping garbage. 

Sunday, June 20, 2010

The story always starts the same with a boy and a girl

And a hook, and a game.

So, i really meant to write this weekend but I suck.  We had such a nice weekend, ryan acutally got two days off in a row (he worked 97 hours so he could) and we went to Memphis Kiddy Park on Friday.  It was soooo hot. But Asher had a great time.  Once I get the pics uploaded to picassa I'll put up a link. 

Yesterday we went to my dad's for father's day and then my brother gave Asher his Birthday Present a few days early so he could use it, a two pool inflatable pool.  Once again, I'll post pics when I have them up. 

I'm sad the weekend is over, it was so nice. 

And as a side note, Asher took his first three steps on Friday.  Perhaps he will be walking by one yet. :)

Thursday, June 17, 2010

ADD logicially

So, I am feeling really out of control at work. I feel like every little thing that happens throws me into rages.  I don't know why.  I used to be so cool and in control of my emotions.  I guess it doesn't help that I have my monthly visitor, though I hate using that as an excuse and I hate when people give that knowing know what I mean. I hate it. 

A girl's word means nothing anymore.  I feel like any integrity that I try to exude is just dust in the wind to borrow a cliche. 

oh well, I'm gonna try to forget about it for now, I'm going to Memphis Kiddy Park with Asher and Ryan for Father's day tomorrow. 

Fuck Work.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Don't be scared, I've done this before, show me your teeth

Sigh.  Why does the city operate the way it does.  I will never understand.  My boss thinks that cleaning and rearranging the office is more important than doing my job.  Oh well, I guess, I'm still getting paid. 

One day I wonder if anyone will appreciate me at work.  In fact, I wonder how many people ask that question every day?  And I wonder how many of those people honestly deserve the appreciation they ask for.  And I also wonder If I fall into the previously mentioned category...

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

I'll never let you go if you promise not to fade away

I am now CPR certified.  Aren't you proud.  My CPR manquin's name was Paul. 

I'm tearing up the 50 book challenge.  It helps that I drive a lot and I get a lot of time to listen to Audio books and I still read books at the same time.  Honestly I feel like I read soooo much, a lot of it is due to Ryan workign all of the time, I just read after I put Asher to bed and get the house work done. 

Am I exciting or what?

I want to take a Tai Chi or yoga class or something.  I need something to do.

Monday, June 14, 2010

I listened in, yes I'm guilty of this, you should know this

Ryan is working 97 hours this week so he can "earn" two days off together this weekend so we can do something for Fathers day.  I hate walmart so much I could just scream.  Something has to change soon, right?

Possibly starting first shift next week.  Good for me, bad for ryan.  It means we won't see each other even more than we don't now because of when I'll have to go to bed. 

I'm looking to the wind for change.

And it's raining again.  

Oh, and did I mention that after battling off the rabbits from my garden now the deer have finished it off?  everything I planted is gone.  Why do I even try? 

Sunday, June 13, 2010


I'm thinking about watching the True Blood series.  I read most of her books until 7 or 8, then i just got out of them.  I don't know, couldn't hurt to netflix them, right?

Let's see, JJ's deck party was awesome.  We had such a good time.  I can't wait to do it again.

Ryan's mom is overcomplicating Asher's first birthday.  Like I should be suprised.  I hate it when she does this, though. 

I wish that my chest would stop feeling like it spent all night being a punching bag.  One day soon I hope...Nothing I do seems to help, though. :(

Saturday, June 12, 2010

B Spot and fire pits

I've had a pretty good weekend so far, sorry about the lack of a post yesterday but I'd figure you'd be used to that by now.  Yesterday my bro and his friend Jakey (from Kentucky) came out and we had a camp fire and hot dogs cooked on said fire and it was super nice and fun.  

Today we got a sitter and went to Michael Symon's B Spot in Woodmere.  It was super fantastic.  I think I'm in love with any Michael Symon restaurant.  They have a veggie burger there, it's call the "Why??".  Basically it's a portabella mushroom burger but if you wanted you could add bacon for free.  Delish. 

Tonite is JJ's deck party, so that should be fun. oh and mattie's first bday party which was moved, dont' ask, long story.

Thursday, June 10, 2010


Most unproductive work day ever.  I guess there is always next week. 

A quick update about my most recent candy books author, she does get better and she drops the stupid similies.  and she is funny so I like that, too.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Sore Melons

Yeah, you probably don't want to hear this but my chest hurts so much.  I wish I would stop making milk already, it's been two weeks now, but they are long lasting 'cow at the fair' quality.  And they hurt!  I thought Asher peed on me when I was giving him his bottle this morning, nope it was my leaking ladies.  Joy.  This has to stop sometime.  Right?

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

So I like vampire smut novels...sue me.

Yeah, I can't stand it, I love that trash.  I read them like candy and rot my mind.  This author that I'm reading right now loves stupid obvious similies.  For example, if she had written the above statement it would have read as " i read them like candy and rot my mind like acutal candy would rot my teeth if I never brushed them".  Very obvious and stupid stuff like that.  And she needs and anatomy lesson because she thinks that those really awesome sexy muscles that are behind your nipples are called biceps. 

Ryan asked me why I keep reading if I complain so much abou them.  It's because I am stupid.  This is my achilles heel.  And I just don't care.

Monday, June 7, 2010

Customer Service

So, the company who financed our really expensive carpeting adventure to try and sell the condo has our old address, thus we have not received a bill.  After trying to contact someone there for days, I finally got ahold of someone today who was about the rudest person I have ever dealt with.  You would figure they want me to pay, right?  So, shouldn't they help me out and send me a bill to the right address?  No. of course not.  They won't change the address without talking to Ryan.  The guy on the phone acutally asked me if my husband was home, like I'm some little kid answering the phone for my parents.  And then he hung up on me.  Fucking douche bag. Wells Fargo, you can suck my toes.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Body Image

I feel better about my body now than I ever have in my life, which I find kind of weird.  I am only a few pounds lighter than before I became pregnant but I feel that my body is a different shape now and I like it better than I used to.  Anyway, I am going to try to like my body for as long as I can since I'm only getting older and that equals less attractive.  See, here is the equasion:


Hey, I never said I was good at math but you get the idea.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Strawberry Napoleons

Jen, JJ and I all got together to cook last night.  Originally we were gonna make strawberry ice cream but failed to do the prep work (kind of par for the course for us, read the directions before hand, who does that?) so then we had stuff and were trying to figure out what to maek with puff pastries, whipping cream, instant pudding and strawberries.  JJ suggested Napoleons and then we saw the recipe for the same on the box of puff pastries.  What's interesting about that is that we actually were planning on making something very similar just adlibbing.  how weird is that? They were super delicious and looked really pretty but of course I didn't take a picture of them cause I'm an idiot. Here are pics of clean up cause I'm never smart enough to take pics during the actual cooking.

Thursday, June 3, 2010


Last night was tough.  Asher had nightmares (I think) and was up crying around midnight.  I got up and after a while got tired of standing next to his crib rubbing his back and eventually took him to bed with me.  Then after all of that, he and ryan hog the whole bed.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Lazy Daisy

I missed yesterday, too.  It's cause I went to give blood (but they wouldn't take it, I forgot my ID then had to run to my car because I was already late to the party and they were upset with me coming last minute, then my pulse was too high to give when I finally got back.  Oh well I guess) and then I got distracted.  I also went apartment hunting with B before I went to give blood.

Today...I don't know, I am not feeling very motivated.  Reading two books at once right now, one an ebook and one an audio book.  And they both mentioned golems.  Coincidence? of course but I still think it's interesting.