i'm still feeling down about derby. I missed last night. My thighs still hurt pretty bad and I was just super depressed so, you know... :(
Plus, my bro and the vic watched lost boys 3 without me. Like, one of my favorite movie series of all time and they watched it without me. I mean, everyone says that i am over reacting and they don't think that way but it hurt my feelings, like, i'm not cool enough to watch it with. I get to watch it by myself. Maybe i won't watch it at all, since i suck so bad. I prob will. maybe. i don't know. the only person i hurt by doing it is myself but i hate myself anyway so who cares, right?
Ah, it's one of those days. My dress makes me look thick. So, that's fun too. and i get to spend all day cleaning. even more fun. oh well.
And people can tell me all day long that i didn't quit roller derby but i did. and that is one more thing on my list of things i just couldn't get done. i don' tknow, i 'm gonna try out maybe for the cleveland team (they have a cuter outftit anyway) in august, and train with Steph during the rest of the year. i don't know.
I need to end this pity party now and get cleaning. Probably shouldn't even have written today at all.
it all just seems like excuses to me.