Monday, April 11, 2011
The walls are closing in, tight, tight
Asher has developed a fear of going to bed recently...It's very trying and stressful. I got him a new nightlight so hopefully that helps. The jellyfish lamp bit the dust. The little tentacles got caught in the pump and when I pulled them out the pump stopped working. The lights still come on but now the jellyfish don't bob around the tank anymore so it's kind of pointless. I'm probably gonna have to buy him a new one but they are a little pricey.
I'm feeling down a lot lately. What's wrong with me? I don't know. Something. I guess I'm imbalanced. I keep trying to do things to make me chipper and happy again but I think it's something that can't be forced. I feel like I'm at a crossroads and I have to make a decision but I don't like the outcome of either direction so I'm just standing in the middle, not making a choice. And that's why I'm feeling kind of like I can't accomplish anything? Perhaps. I thought maybe it'd go away and I wouldn't have to worry about it. Perhaps it will. You know, I am not even sure what exactly I'm talking about, right?
I wanna eat food but I am feeling so fat right now. I wish I liked hard boiled eggs, I heard they are good for you and make you feel full. Doesn't matter if I feel full, though, I feel I can always eat.
Thinking on eggs, coloring eggs with Asher and Katya tomorrow. I'll post pics probably on wed. I also am starting up the intermediate level of fencing class tonight. I'm a little nervous because these people are all gonna be better than those of us who just entered this level... Oh well, it'll be fun either way. Fencing is fun.