I'm supposed to be working on my homework for Watershed Academy or on processing lab data but here I am slacking off, looking up lyrics in Spanish and having google translate them for me. *Shakes head in disappointment* I'm so disappointed in me.
Lately I can't seem to get things done. Or if I do, something else happens that makes me feel like a failure again. The basement is still leaking. Pretty bad again last night, I think it's getting worse. Gonna try to call people today to get an appointment to have someone look at it. Everyone tells me "Oh, Ry can do this and that and he can get it under control. I'll help him." Let me just break that down for you into what I hear and understand.
a) ry has no idea how to do physical stuff. Computer stuff, he's pretty good. Play video games all night long? He's your man. Completely ignore the problem? He's on it.
b)you are gonna come help him? When? Cause my basement is flooding again and you still haven't shown up or even tried to make time. I know I don't really have the money to hire a dude to fix the basement when "people" (I put this in quotes because I haven't had any real people come to help me fix the problem yet) could do it cheaper. I understand everyone has a life (occasionally I do, too) and is busy with their own stuff. I get that. But don't tell me we can do this cheap and then just leave my house to get all wet and moldy every time we have rain.
So, in conclusion, this is the sentence I hear: "Hey, ry is completely incompetent in that area and will get upset and angry but will be not be effective in correcting the situation and I'm gonna just tell him what to do in vague terms so he is still clueless while I sit over here at my house and do whatever it is that I am doing that is not helping to fix your basement."
I'm not trying to sound unappreciative or make it seem like I think Ry is a moron. He's not and I am appreciative but I should have just hired someone weeks ago and been done with this whole mess instead of pretending like we could fix it ourselves.
So, we are calling today. My house smells bad again, too. It sucks.
Another thing that is making me feel like a failure, Asher is developing jealousy over Katya. I was trying to help her with her homework last night and he was being awful, he didn't want to play with daddy, only with either me or Katya, he flipflopped all night. Then we couldn't get him to bed, he was just freaking out and crying and screaming and it was bad. I can't remember when we had a bedtime without incident, it's been so long.
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