It's difficult to respect yourself when you don't have any self respect. It's hard to have self confidence when you aren't confident in yourself. Do you see where I'm going with this?
A few days of no sleep. I'm still kind of depressed. It's an angry depression this time. I'm tired and angry that I'm tired and I'm grumpy and tired of being grumpy. Rocking out to David Bowie this morning. It's good. I need a run today. Doing well with the running, thanks for asking.
Wish I was more awesome than I am. I wish I felt more awesome than I am at least, so I could fake being awesome. I think that is what puts the "lie" in believe, faking being awesome.