But there's no use hiding this pretty head in the ground

So...I'm feeling better than I have in a long time.  I'm in a great mood.  I think part of it was that I saw Scott Pilgram vs the World last night and it was amazing...!!! I totally <3 <3 <3 it so much.  Go and see it if it's still playing where you are.  I demand you see it.  I am going to own it as soon as possible.  I loved it that much. 

And today is day 2 on yaz...I really don't think that that could have had the effect so quickly...

But I'm feeling good.  I'm gonna do things for me, not for other people, for a while and see how that goes. 

I wanted to take Asher to Preston's Hope Park but it's gonna be 90 out today...probably too hot though...

and I start Yoga tonight...wish me luck!

Gotta go to some stupid dam meeting...

On the way to Washington where work is done by men with gavels

So, yes, definately self destructive.  I think it helps sometimes, though, I need to face the tough realities of life.  Yeah, take that, self!  Basically I deserve what I get and I get what I deserve I think. 

Enough of that.  I've been told that people occasionally wander over these parts and see what's the hubbub so i shoudl probably not really wax on about my stupidity too much.  But then again, it's my blog and I can do whatever I want.  So, nya. 

I'm in rare form today.  I really have no idea how I feel today.  Was extremely anxious yesterday, everything was setting me off.  I'm still feeling anxious today.  And tired, asher was up crying from 5:15 to when I left for work, we just left him in his crib and he would cry for like 10 mins then sleep for 15, off and on.  Lately I just don't have the energy to deal with him so much.  Once again, mom failure.  (in addition to other personal failure qualities). 

I should probably stop writing soon, I really have nothing good to say about  myself this morning and I'm sure this is just coming off as whiny and self loathing (omg, that's exactly what it's coming off as, give this girl a prize, so freaking smart).   So, with that, I bid you all adeu.

Oh, alice, you're falling down the rabbit's hole

So, we have internets at work again!  Yeah, i can finally do my freaking job.  Great. 

So, I think I am self destructive.  I need to work on that.

And...today is decision day.  Do I start the pill or do I just go on and hope things change?  I just hate to take something that alters me.  I mean, am I still the me I am when I take drugs?  Or am I somebody else?  And do i have any control over it when I am medicated? Iknow this is stupid because it's just birth control but it still does change things and i dunno...I guess I'm just stupid. 

Found vials for the alice party.  One down.  tea cups is a new challenge.  I'm thinking about making either jello or ice cups, suggestions or ideas?  And Project Very Large Mushroom Paper Machete will begin commencement soon. 

I'm thinking earier for my party, too.  Like...I dunno...I'll get back to you.

Well, much to do at work today, talk to you cool cats later.

a kiss to wish us all goodnight

So...no internet at work again today. Seriously I don't know how anyone gets any work done. If this goes on much longer we might be at threat from an epa violation. Oh well, its not my fault.

Hung out w the boys last night and watched the movie kick ass. It was super good. That little girl is amazing. Gonna try to play two paragon level characters that my bro created tonight in dnd w him and martin, wish me luck. I know I'm gonna suck but what can u do?

also...some stupid bitch reverse rear ended me on my way home from work yesterday. I was already in a rush because I think I gave myself algal toxin poisoning, I accidentially dumped a bucket of algae sample water on myself the other day and since they I have had a rash at the site and awesome stomach troubles. Anyway, was experiencing those awesome stomach troubles when this woman stopped waaaay too early for a school bus coming from the other direction and then decided she was too close and backed up on the street. And hit me. And kept going, even tho I was laying on my horn. Then she finally got out and this is how it went:
her: what happened?
me: um...you backed into my car.
Her: I did? are you sure
me: ummm....yea, I'm sure.
Gah. Anyway, because my tummy was not happy I did not wait for police, just got her information and rushed home.

Oh, and to top it all off, no damage to her old tank of a chevy blazer.

And the cherry on top? when I called my mom she didn't ask if I was okay or anything but interogated me and told me everything I did wrong. Sigh.

I'm tired of writing on my phone. Later.

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every letter that you wrote has found its way to me

So...no internet at work means updating on my phone so the spelling, grammar and punctuation/capitalization isn't gonna be very good, its just hard to do on my phone. And that is all I'm gonna mention about work cause I promised yesterday I wouldn't say anything. So...ry ended up going into work again on his day off yesterday. So annoying. Oh well.
Getting ready to mail off goodies to california, yea! who doesn't like getting stuff in the mail. I just have to stop being lazy about it and get it done.

I really wanna go see the birthday massacre at mr. Smalls theatre in pittsburg, its such a cool venue. It used to be a church. I've seen them there before. I'm glad so many of my friends like tbm now, the last time it was just me and the vic travelling to see our fav band. Unfortunately the show is on a Tuesday, I don't think its gonna happen. They don't have cleve dates yet, I really hope they do. Id drive to pittsburg and see them here as well. Cause I love them that much.

I need to find edible tea cups. Anyone have suggestions? also little vials, about 25 or so with little stoppers. And I need it to be kinda cheap...

Well, gotta go study some algae...

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I wanna take a chance, deep in your underpants

So, yeah, don't you love it when someone retires while working on a huge project for the EPA, doesn't get it done and then the EPA comes back to you, who only had a very small part in this whole project and really has no idea what is going on and says "hey, why haven't you fixed this yet"?  Is it just me?  Oh, yes, I guess it is.  Bah.

Oh, and did I mention he deleted all his files so I only have ONE hard copy that I could find and even if I scan everything I still have to retype the whole kit and kaboodle report?  Fuck that shit.  That's all I have to say about that.

And my one coworker is being all high and mighty and pretending like he's in charge of everything and the best at it as well.  I love it so much.  I am so glad that I have my  little desk and I just do my own work and keep out of the rest of the stuff around here. 

Hmm...kinda thought my post would be more about life and less about work...guess not.  Hopefully ry doesn't have to go into work again today (on his '2nd' day off, by that i mean he worked yesterday till super late...) and that he and Asher can come out for lunch today. 

Maybe tomorrow I won't have as much to complain about at work.   Acutually, I will make a promise (with my fingers crossed) to not talk about work tomorrow on the blog. :\

Yeah, I got a car that transforms into a boat. Nobody's got that...

So, Jeh told me about an all night horror movie event sponsered by the grilled cheese restarant Melt.  Sounds awesome, hopefully I can gets some people to come. 

I was in a super weird mood last night.  I probably shoulda wrote a post then, it def woulda been more amusing.  I think it's a combination of being alone, being tired, being just a little crazy and playing with baby toys all night.  I dunno. 

I'm def not feeling it today at work.  :( pretty sure today is not gonna be the best day ever.

Oh, and went to visit my mom last night and she just pretty much ignored me, too.  I love it. 

Did I mention Ry is working on his days off even though they specifically told him he wasn't supposed to do it anymore?  Explain that to me if you can.